I have fallen in love with SuperCatKei and itsme_fruity. Both are from Singapore. I am grateful to have found them both. It’s so fun.
On 15th September I was casually browsing through Twitch and I came across a streamer who looked extremely devoted to her music.
I clicked on her. And there SuperCatKei was. It’s as if we were destined to meet.
No not exactly. But I feel in love with her cover of “Castle on the hill” by Ed Sheeran. And I subscribed. I am attending every stream even if it is for only a small period of time.
And then day before yesterday I met itsme_fruity. She is so funny. I love her personality.
Even though sometimes I feel stupid to ask questions about some discussion that’s going on, I am working on it despite my social anxiety.
I watched a horror movie ending after a long time on itsme_fruity’s discord channel. It was fun.
So that’s the thing, I attend their streams every day. And that’s awesome. It gives me hope.
Apart from that I am amazing. I feel like I am getting better.
An important observation I made about myself was that I get social anxiety even on Twitch. I was listening to the sample of an audiobook called “How to Be Yourself” by Ellen Hendriksen on audible.in and I noticed that Ellen Hendriksen said something like what I was thinking.
Ellen says something like how one feels like they don’t belong in society and feel like an outsider so much during social anxiety that they can’t express their feelings and words.
That’s exactly what happens with me. I remember every moment I feel like I was an outsider I felt more isolated even though everything was happening virtually.
And it’s a painful feeling. Everyone with social anxiety knows this.
So I think I should work on overcoming my social anxiety.
So much wisdom and insight from Twitch?!
Thanks for reading this blog post. I have a question for you. Do you have social anxiety and how do you deal with it?