I am looking for a job.
And I feel like I’m fighting myself more than I’m struggling to get a job interview.
So I apply for the job and sometimes I don’t receive the call from the Human Resources executive.
Then if I end up appearing for the group discussion, I skip the interview.
And I am back to being jobless.
And if you’re confused as to what I’m blabbering about, I mean to convey to you that I’m scared of the interview.
I’ll work on overcoming this fear, but I’m not nearly as scared of the interview as I am of my sense of uncertainty.
Uncertainty as to if I should even work for someone else rather than starting a business or make writing my business.
Uncertainty as to if I should get a private job or a government job.
Uncertainty as to if I should work in people facing roles or the back office.
This is what’s been happening in my life lately.
I was avoiding writing because I was giving myself excuses like “It’s only a hobby”.
I still don’t know what to do.
And I’m sure many people in my country, India and the world think similarly about their careers.
And yes the uncertainty is strong. And I feel very uneasy.
A lot of things have been postponed because I’m waiting for a way to make a decision.
A decision as to what I should do.
If you ask me, why aren’t you able to get a job, I’d say “I am confused if I should do a job or a business.”
So I’m kind of stuck in my mind being unable to decide.
And it’s not like I’m appearing for lots of interviews and am getting rejected.
I’m not even applying.
So yeah, I hope I get out of this mess.
Thanks for reading this line. It means a lot!
