As I write about the solution, I would like to tell you that I tried to overcome my social anxiety for the last two days with great difficulty and I succeeded to go to my grandmaa’s house and also ask my father if I could accompany him at his office. But I failed to continue the streak of success. I will try againAnirban Saren
The reason I am writing this blog post is to show a way in which life works to disguise your greatest gifts as your greatest weakness.
By the way I have not become a master leader and salesman but I want to. This is what I want and I am willing to do many difficult things for achieving it.
Why do I want it? Because I want to help people be free of suffering.
As you know I said before that I have social anxiety disorder. Then why this deep desire to be a leader and a salesman, things that are totally opposite of a person suffering from social anxiety?
Well to be honest I don’t know. You can ask many of my friends and they will tell you that I am not a people person. But my close friends will tell you an entirely different story. They will tell you that I love people. When among them I become an irresistibly social person.
So I don’t know why this is the case. But I think there is a shadow aspect of my personality that has been hidden due to my circumstances of life. Regardless of the reason let’s talk about the solution.
As I write about the solution, I would like to tell you that I tried to overcome my social anxiety for the last two days with great difficulty and I succeeded to go to my grandmaa’s house and also ask my father if I could accompany him at his office. But I failed to continue the streak of success. I will try again.
So back to what we are talking about here. What is the solution?
I used to think I can just use brute force to push through the fear. But it’s not easy.
I even read books on releasing emotions, self-esteem and stoic philosophy but life just doesn’t work like that.
But I have to tell you a solution that I will execute on, if not for me, for you.
My solution is to follow my passion. I will improve my self-expression skills through attending events, writing everyday for a set period of time, commit to self-expression,etc.
Yes that’s my solution because my passion is a stronger motivation than social anxiety.
So basically my deepest desire is to be a leader and salesman who helps people overcome suffering and I have no clue how to do it because I feel abnormal levels of fear before most social interactions. This is going to be one hell of a ride.
This could be my greatest gift. This could also be my greatest regret if I don’t try. Either way I will succeed or perish trying.
So thank you for reading this blog post. I could not post in the past two days because I was busy applying some of my own ideas to overcome social anxiety. See you tomorrow.