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How I Feel After Coming Back From Bangalore To Howrah

The author writes about “How I Feel” after coming from Bangalore to Howrah after staying there for 1.5 years looking for a job.

I feel calm.

But I also feel like I am not living up to my potential.

When I was in Bangalore, I was applying to jobs and I was getting a few interviews as well. But here in West Bengal the job market is tricky and deceptive.

There are so many criteria and requirements that are not suited for a fresher.

So I am forced to apply for jobs in other states.

I’m also applying to competitive exams, but I am always having to choose between competitive exams vs private job search because my personality issues don’t allow me to do multi-tasking effectively.

So I find it difficult to navigate the job market.

Although I am in my comfort zone, I feel uncomfortable in Howrah. Not because I don’t like it here, but because the job opportunities are less here.

Please don’t get me wrong. I love my parents, I love my grandmother and my relatives but I don’t see a future here. There simply aren’t enough places to shine in as an entry level data analyst with no experience.

Maybe in the future when I have more years of experience, I’ll think about moving back to Howrah from wherever I get a job.

Till then my job search continues.

Apart from my career, I feel like I need to do more physical activities. But I feel like I need to lose more weight.

So yeah I feel uncomfortable after coming from Bangalore to Howrah. 

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Returning Home

The author writes about his return journey from Kolkata to Bangalore after he went to Kolkata a week ago.

Me, my mother and father arrived in Bangalore yesterday, and the weather is fine here. Much cooler than Kolkata’s weather. The journey is… read more.

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How to be patient?

So, in 2015, therapy felt pointless for this person until they met Dr. Prasanta Kumar Roy in 2017, who really understood them and helped them heal from BPAD. They emphasize faith and patience in overcoming suffering, suggesting that finding hope and keeping busy is key to coping with tough times.

When I was going to therapy in 2015, I was just told to do Cognitive Behavioral Therapy(CBT) homework.

The problem wasn’t that I won’t do it. The problem was I didn’t feel like doing it.

I didn’t have a problem with CBT but I had a problem with them not fixing my emotional states.

My Favorite Psychologist

It’s only in 2017 when I found a great psychologist who doesn’t even charge any fees if one goes through the public healthcare system of standing in the queue for 2 hours.

It was then that I truly got healed from my BPAD.

He is Dr. Prasanta Kumar Roy and he sits in Kolkata’s SSKM hospital.

He made me feel for the first time that a psychologist understood me.

But that was before 4-5 years of changing many psychologists. And years of suffering inflicted by my own mind.

Questions & Answers

Why do we suffer so much? How to be patient so that the suffering ends one day? How to wait till that day?

I think we suffer because we don’t have faith.

Plain and simple. We need to have faith in something bigger than us.

And without God’s blessings you can’t have so much patience and humility.

I’m not asking you to become a believer from an atheist. You could believe in a role model/good person also. But you must feel hope.

How to be patient?

I guess I started healing the day I started chanting the Hare Krishna mantra internally in my mind in 2017.

That gave me mental strength to hold on and keep doing what I have to do.

So you do need faith and belief and need to bow down to the divine to have so much patience.

How to wait till that day?

So basically I don’t feel like I’m waiting because I just do what I have with me.

“If I can’t walk, I’ll crawl.”

If I can’t go to classes, I’ll take online classes.

If I can’t go to grocery shopping, I’ll at least learn to cook.

If I can’t do anything, paralyzed by fear. Then I will speak to my mom, and she tells me to have faith.

Conclusion

I know I’m not a psychologist but I hope this blog post added value to your life.

Thanks for reading!

Disclaimer: I(Anirban Saren) am not a licensed medical professional, psychiatrist or a psychologist and I’m not providing any medical advice. I’m writing my own opinions. Please consult a professional psychiatrist, psychologist before following this advice.