Tag: feelings

life is big, but nothing compared to you

This blog is about a song that makes the author realize that life is big but nothing compared to that special person(you).

I am listening to this song called “Chuye Dekho Amay” by Tanveer Evan.

And I love it.

It’s in Bengali but here’s the link to the meaning of its lyrics.

And as I listen to the part where the Tanveer sings “Tumi chuye dekho amay/Tumi chuye dekho amay/chuye dekho amay/amake joriye buke rekhe dao”, I get emotional.

It literally means “Try seeing if you can touch me, try seeing if you can touch me, see if you can touch me, embrace me and hold me close to your chest.”

It doesn’t remind me of any memory. But I can feel it.

What I want to convey through this example is that, life is big, but nothing compared to that person who means so much to you.

Also it doesn’t have to be anything romantic. It can be spiritual as well.

You can sign it to Lord Shiva and it still holds its meaning to a great extent.

Anyways this is a little detour from hope, which is the topic of my blog. But I think it’s fine once in a while.

Thanks for reading this line! It means a lot.

How My Illusions of Anger and Misunderstanding Are Removed By The Bhagavad Gita

The author writes about how reading the Bhagavad Gita helps him overcome the illusions of emotions like anger, misunderstanding, etc.

The Bhagavad Gita helps me overcome illusions of anger and misunderstanding and more.

Yesterday I was very angry with my sister. 

I was feeling angry because she comes to my bedroom and sleeps in it because it’s tidier than her bedroom.

She goes back to her bedroom at night but yesterday I felt very possessive of my bedroom.

So I felt angry even minutes after she went back to her room.

But then I started reading the Bhagavad Gita.

And I read a couple of chapters, and my anger was dispelled fast. 

Because when I read the Bhagavad Gita, it reminded me of the real goal of life.

It gave me clarity and I felt balanced and calm.

I also performed some of the psychological and breathing techniques that I learnt from NIMHANS.

And it helped me.

But the Bhagavad Gita was a real help.

My anger and possessiveness were illusions. They were not real. They were born of misunderstanding.

Sometimes I wonder why I didn’t read the Bhagavad Gita earlier.

Because if I had read it earlier, I would not have dropped out of the science stream after school.

But now there’s no point regretting it.

I need to use everything I have and not feel sorry for myself.

It’s never too late to change. 

And now that I have the dispeller of all illusions — The Bhagavad Gita, I can relax.

I am thankful I read Bhagavad Gita.

Thank you for reading this line! It means a lot.

I wish

I wish I had the courage to tell her

That I think about her

That I care for her

That I don’t want to lose her

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I wish I had the intelligence to understand her

To feel her pain

To let her make mistakes but

To let me feel her pain

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I wish I was closer to her

To protect her

To be by her side

Even when she didn’t want me

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I wish I could be someone she prefers

Someone she thinks is handsome

And be hot and cool

And everything she adores

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I wish I could tell her

That I love her

That I just want her soul

That I just want to be there for her.

–

Anirban Saren

Is she reading this?

Is she reading my poems?

Is she reading my foolishness?

Is she reading my blogs?

Is she reading my thoughts?

Does she care?

Does she even care about my life?

Does she care about my heart?

Does she have feelings for me?

Do I know her?

Do I really know her?

I guess I wanna know her?

Can I give this feeling a name?

Is she still reading this?

An apology and a brief mental health update

I posted a blog post about my dissatisfaction with my life a few hours ago.

I write in that post that I wanted to cry but can’t.

I also wrote that “nobody understands me”.

All of my feelings are valid and it’s ok to cry.

But I felt the post was a little negative and didn’t add value to the readers. So I have taken it down the to drafts version.

So I am apologizing for my mistake.

Right now I am in the state I travelled to recently.

And my anxiety is going through the roof.

I need to stay busy and go out and have patience.

I’m glad you read this line. Thanks a lot!

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Why I Love EDM (Electronic Dance Music)

In this blog post, I will write about EDM(electronic dance music) and why I love it.

I used to think that it wasn’t possible to explain why one loves a certain type of music. But I will take the risk and try to explain it because I love EDM so much.

Reasons Why I Love It

Here’s a list of reasons-

  1. It makes me feel free
  2. When I hear it I feel connected to other people
  3. It has the perfect balance between feelings and dance
  4. The beats automatically make me want to move and dance
  5. Remixes give new life to original songs
  6. I love the “noise”, it helps me focus when writing
  7. It feels positive

So that’s why I love EDM.

When I was in high school, I loved listening to remixes of Hindi songs and from there I started listening to David Guetta’s songs. That’s how my love for EDM started.

Now my favourite artists are Avicii(RIP), Martin Jensen, The Chainsmokers, Jonas Blue, Martin Garrix, etc. in no particular order.

Why I love EDM in a few words would be “the noise where feelings meet dance”.

There’s another reason why I love EDM. That’s because of hope.

When I listen to EDM, I am immediately transported to a place where there’s hope. I don’t know how to describe it but it feels like the end, the final place, the destination and so on.

It’s the goal I want to reach and listening to EDM temporarily transports me to that goal.

Maybe you feel the same way or differently about your favourite music. It’s just how I feel.

What do I intend to do with this type of music? I aim to listen to it more, learn about it more, learn music, learn music production and DJing as a hobby and learn to appreciate it more.

Conclusion

To sum up, EDM is “the noise where feelings meet dance” for me. And that’s why I love it.

Thank you for reading this blog post. Please comment- What is your favourite genre of music? How does it make you feel?