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My “Perfect” Emergency Preparedness Plan Wisdom

Create an emergency preparedness plan.

Well I already feel anxious after reading this prompt…

And I feel like I don’t want to think about it.

All I want to do is avoid making this plan even though I know that making a plan is important.

Because I feel anxious and I want to stop feeling anxious.

But jokes aside, here’s my perfect plan-

Keep enough stock of food
Save money every month
Have an emergency fund
Make a household budget
Have investments
And at the same time stay sane

Maybe this is not the most perfect plan but it is a plan.

Many people won’t even make a plan.

But I did.

And regarding the last point “And at the same time stay sane”, it should come on top because without a calm mind you will make deadly mistakes.

During the COVID-19 pandemic, most people suffered a lot due to improper planning.

And many didn’t even have a plan.

And again regarding the staying sane part, I have anxiety and bipolar disorder and personality disorders.

And I got discharged from NIMHANS, which is the most reputed mental health hospital in Asia, my family was able to sustain me and themselves because we had a plan.

I stayed in NIMHANS for 3.5months approx.

And I feel we were lucky to have a plan.

So this is my perfect emergency preparedness plan with an imperfect sequence of activities and a somewhat informal writing style.

Thanks for reading this line. It means a lot!☺️

I’m pretty average at most things but I love them

On what subject(s) are you an authority?

I am not an authority on anything. But I love many things.

I love …

Playing badminton
Singing
Writing

But I’m average at them.

And the funniest part is I don’t even intend to make them into a career.

But I love them regardless.

I’ve been admitted to NIMHANS for the last 2 months and I have learnt many things about myself.

And I got many compliments for my singing and badminton skills.

And I think I might continue doing them.

Other than that I have a career to look after which is in data science.

I’m also average in data science.

I feel like I need to focus on one thing.

But I also feel like I have no sense of direction or clarity.

I don’t know where life will lead me.

But I … I’m confused I guess.

Anyways thanks for reading this sentence. It means a lot.

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Learnt that too much sensitivity is not so good

So my psychologist-psychiatrist doctor’s team met me yesterday and explained to me why sensitivity may not be as good.

I guess I’m working on it in my psych ward.

I asked the main doctor that if I can control my sensitivity will the solution to my problems be different from the initial anger outbursts?

He said said a big YES!

Thanks a lot for reading this line.

He wanted to have hope (Original poem)

He wanted to have hope
He wanted to live a good life
He wanted to love
He wanted to smile
He wanted to be happy
He wanted to live for what he believed in
But they didn’t care about his hope
They wanted to box him within narrow domestic walls
They didn’t care about his good life
They didn’t care about his love
They didn’t care about his lover
They didn’t care about his life
They didn’t give him a chance to have hope
I say we avenge all these fallen hope warriors
I say we say no to family rules, caste, religion, societal pressure
I say we say no to ego
I say we say no to hatred
I say we say no to jealous
I say we say no to anger
I say we say no to control
I say we say no to manipulation
Because maybe one day he will be reborn in another life
And he will still have hope
And maybe we will care about his hope
And maybe we will care about his life
And maybe he will be able to live for what he believed in.

Is making mistakes in life worth it?

I know I need to change.

Because I was wrong all this time.

When I was a teenager I ignored friends who genuinely cared for me and chased people who were too arrogant to be my friend.

In school and college I focused on the wrong sets of values – marks, college name, too much all round development activities instead of knowledge, focus and hardwork.

Truth be told I was arrogant and a lot more selfish than I am today.

But it was also not entirely my fault because it is a mental illness.

Now I feel like I made these mistakes in life unknowingly and I am feeling regret.

But if I think that way, I would be wrong.

Because people don’t regret things they did, but things they didn’t.

I actually did stuff. I failed multiple times in life. I lost friends. I messed up big time.

But that gave me wisdom.

I know the value of simplicity, humility and a realistic perspective because I had none of these values until a few years ago.

So yes, making mistakes in life is worth it 100%.

I’m glad you read this line. Thanks a lot!

I felt heard

Today the psychiatrists at the National Institute of Mental Health and Neurosciences(NIMHANS, Bangalore) asked my history again after 8 years to understand my real problems.

For the past few days I was feeling scared of not being understood and being judged by them.

But I felt heard today.

I felt like the psychiatrists understood me.

And I got more insights into my problems.

I’m glad you read this. Thanks a lot!

I hadn’t posted yesterday because I was feeling a bit low. Thanks for understanding!

Forgiveness is the greatest dharma/religion

I am not a saint nor am I am scientist.

But I admit when I am wrong or when I made a mistake.

One day I had said something that hurt my grandmother.

She felt misunderstood and hurt.

But she forgave us.

My uncle later said this line “Forgiveness is the greatest dharma”.

Forgive is indeed the greatest dharma. It is the ultimate tool for healing.

It can stop wars, change people, heal hearts,etc.

It can also replace any organized religion.

When you know the value of forgiveness you don’t need another religion because you treat the other person like you treat yourself.

You try to find God in the other person by putting aside your assumptions for a moment.

I know this post is a bit disorganised. It’s because I am going through a big change in my life.

I’m glad you read this line. Thanks a lot!

10 things that inspire me that might inspire you

Here are 10 things that inspire me that might inspire you-

Leaders (because it shows me that one man can change the world). For me it’s Gandhi and Dr. B R Ambedkar,etc. For you it may be someone else.
Parents’ love (because it’s truly selfless and unconditional)
Wild and stray animals (because it gives me hope. Why do stay animals strive for survival even though they don’t have much intelligence, no plan for life, no careers? Maybe because they aren’t or can’t suffer in thought obsessively like us.)
Doing what I love (because it gives me joy. I love reading novels, writing blogs, learning stuff,etc. And it gives me joy.)
Realizing my mistakes (I am open to learning my mistakes and I am flexible to learn my mistakes. Maybe that’s my gift. But it inspires me because it makes me grow as a person.)
Being grateful (because it is one of the truths of existence. “You haven’t created the air that you breathe, so stay humble because someone else did it for you to be alive.” which is something a person I know said to me.)
Overcoming fear (because it makes me grow as a person and allows me to do things I can’t do or haven’t done before.)
Doing something creative (because it gives me self-knowledge and the pleasure of helping people feel good from my creative work gives me joy.)
Accomplishing something difficult (because it gives me a sense of accomplishment and pride.)
Praying to God (because it feels good. I’m just like the average person who prays to God for a salary hike next quarter. But I feel it’s my duty to pray to God for no reason.)

There are other things that inspire me but here’s the top 10.

I’m glad you read this line. Thanks a lot!

Maybe I’m wrong

“Maybe I am wrong” is the start of a change.

A change from inside out. A change of realisation.

Yesterday I and my family went to someone’s house for dinner.

First I thought she was rude based on our earlier meetings.

But her family was very welcoming.

She talked to me politely. And her family also talked to me politely.

I realised that what I thought that she was a rude person was wrong.

Maybe she thought I was rude.

Before that dinner I was feeling very afraid.

I was thinking about skipping dinner but I thought that “maybe I am wrong”. Maybe she isn’t rude. Maybe she was afraid or stressed.

So I thought let’s give life a chance.

And life gave me self-knowledge and empathy. It proved to me that “people are not bad”.

Maybe I am the one who is thinking wrongly and that people are good.

Nobody is judging you. Nobody is trying to hurt you.

I guess I changed because I was open to being wrong.

I’m glad you read this line. Thanks a lot! 😊